Words to live by...

Love with no need to pre-empt grievance.

New Pics~

So, my Beloved wanted me to send him a pic via the cell phone. I took a bunch of them. Here is one of my favorites...the other is in my profile.

Me Me Meme

Thanks to Diane for the Meme Graphic she made. Betty did this one, so I am doing it too...lol. I won't tag anyone, but if you decide to play then please leave me a comment letting me know so I can come and visit you to read more about you.

Two Names You Go By:
1. Baby
2. Momma

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Red, pink, and white jammie bottoms
2. White top

Two Of Your Favorite Things:
1. My Beloved
2. My sewing machine and central air tie for second place:).

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. To hug my Beloved and touch his face
2. Dentures

Two Favorite Pets You Have Or Had:
1. A shih tzu named Murphy.
2. A tuxedo cat named Mystikal.

Two People You Hope Will Fill This Out:
1. Storm
2. Nicole

Two Things You Did Last Night:
1. Watched TV.
2. Cut out a new dress:).

Two Things You Ate Last Night:
1. Eggs on toast.
2. Reeses Peanut Butter Cup

Two People You Last Talked To:
1. My Beloved
2. Alana

Two Things You Are Doing Tomorrow:
1. Blogging
2. Going to the dentist.

Two of Farthest Trips Taken In The Last 5 Years:
1. Los Angeles, CA
2. Tennessee

Two Favorite Holidays:
1. Mother's Day
2. Christmas

Two Favorite Beverages:
1. Cream with coffee in it:).
2. Sweet Tea

One Word...from Jay~

One word only!!

Not as easy as you might think. Now copy, forward, or post this and change the answers to suit you and pass it on. It's really hard to only use one word answers.

1. Where is your cell phone? .............. table

2. Your significant other?.......................Jeffrey

3. Your hair? ............................................greying

4. Your mother? ......................................deceased

5. Your father?..........................................same

6. Your favorite thing?.............................fabric

7. Your dream last night?......................none

8. Your favorite drink? ............................coffee

9. Your dream/goal?................................healthy

10. The room you're in?..........................living

11. Your ex?...............................................GONE:)

12. Your fear?............................................none

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?........Jeffrey

14. Where were you last night?..............here

15. What you're not?................................mean

16. Muffins?...............................................yummy

17. One of your wish list items?.............car

18. Where you grew up?..........................Maryland

19. The last thing you did?.......................rode

20. What are you wearing?......................clothing

21. Your TV?..............................................none

22. Your pets?............................................zero

23. Your computer? .................................ok

24. Your life?.............................................Jeffrey

25. Your mood?........................................giggly

26. Missing someone?............................Jeffrey

27. Your car?..............................................almost

28. Something you're not wearing?.......diamonds

29. Favorite Store?....................................Wal-Mart

30. Your summer?....................................humid:(

31. Like(love) someone?...................................Jeffrey

32. Your favorite color?............................ Red

33. Last time you laughed?.....................today

34. Last time you cried?...........................Tuesday

35. Who will re-post this?........................Betty:).

Meme Monday #6

Wanna join in the fun? Click the graphic!

FOR THE WEEK OF: 05/04- 05/10/2008

The names of the individual memes are linked to their home-blog. I would love it if you checked them out and even decided to join one or a dozen! If you do, lemme know:).

MONDAY: This is it! Remember, this will be linked to at the MM site on next Monday:). I got tagged by Mike for a meme...it is here.
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TUESDAY:Can you guess where I found about this? lol...

What Your Flip Flops Say About You

You are a warm, friendly person who simply enjoys life. You don't complicate things for yourself. Life is too short! You have a super optimistic attitude, and you have figured out how to be happy. Everyone wants to know your secret... and it's a lot more simple than they might think. Your ideal warm weather place is San Diego.
The Flip Flop Test
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WEDNESDAY:
Wordless Wednesday.

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THURSDAY:
MyThursday Thirteen brought to you by the letter:

Today is officially the day for the Letter G...however, I am skipping to the Letter J(some of you know why...lol. I will return to our regularly scheduled programming next week:).

Being head-over-heels in love at the age of 48 is wonderful! For the longest time every time I heard a love song that really gripped me it would be a song that I would dedicate to him. Lately, the songs that are gripping me are ones he would dedicate to me. I have never felt like this before and I am loving every second of it. He often asks why I love him and now I have definitive answers. This is another first for me. I have never had an answer to that same question when it was asked by others. This simple fact makes me realize that this is, in fact, the first time I have truly loved some one.

1. I love him because I respect him. Despite physical issues, this man goes to work every day...sometimes 12 hours a day 7 days a week. I also respect the wisdom he has cultivated over the years.
2. I love him because we can and do talk about anything and everything.
3. I love him because he not only listens but he hears what I say.
4. I love him because he is quick to meet any need I express to him.
5. I love him because he is emotionally available to me. Him baring his soft lil under belly to me causes me to be willing to do anything necessary to protect it and cherish his vulnerability.
6. I love him because he makes me laugh.
7. I love him because he cherishes my vulnerability and he would never use it against me.
8. I love him because the second he gets a chance to call me he does.
9. Sometimes to just say, "I love you," and then he hangs up.
10. I love him because he believes in me. His thinking I am Wonder Woman makes me become Wonder Woman.
11. I love him because he appreciates the little things. A simple card sent to him makes him smile.
12. I love him because his loving me inspired him to be a better person. Loving him has inspired me likewise.
13. I love him because loving me is what he does best.

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FRIDAY:
Fridays Feast:
Appetizer
When someone smiles at you, do you smile back?
Of course, smiles makes the world go round:).

Soup
Describe the flooring in your home. Do you have carpet, hardwood, vinyl, a mix?
All of the above...but would prefer that my hardwood floors be refinished all over-except the bathroom.

Salad
Write a sentence with only 5 words, but all of the words have to start with the first letter of your first name.
Phyl produces pretty purses purposefully.

Main Course
Do you know anyone whose life has been touched by adoption?
I know several people who have been affected by adoption. For instance, my daughter's honey was adopted in Honduras and is a true blessing in our daily lives.

Dessert
Name 2 blue things.
The sky is a glorious blue today...and I remember how blue to water was at Matthew's Beach:).

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SATURDAY:
Share A Site SaturdaY: I host this one so my post for this week is here.
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SUNDAY:
Slice Of Life
Slice of Life choices for the week of _______, 2008 are:

1.
2.
3.
I have chosen to share this slice of my life:
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Prelude

Something amazing has happened in my life. I am in love...real honest to God absolute head-over-heels in love. Aside from the usual joys of being in love, this new state of being has given me many gifts, inner gifts of discovery about who I am, what I want and need in my life, what I am willing or not to sacrifice, and what makes me tick.

It is almost sad to tell, but I was with the same man for almost 20 years, and despite our valiant efforts it never flowed between us. One of us would be on the other off. If I was up he was down. While I hold to the "opposites attract" theory to some extent when it comes to my life partner, there needs to be some major similarities between he and I. For 20 years, that man asked me why I loved him...my pat(and rather lame) reason was to smile coyly and say, "Because you are you!" This answer never satisified him and now I understand why. The fact is that I did not love him. There was no underlying respect or appreciation to that relationship and a woman must respect and appreciate her man. For me, any feelings before or without that are (quite sadly) merely infatuation and lust. I freely admit to having had both feelings for him but what I felt is not love. We got married and had children and then struggled diligently to "make it work." It did not. Two years ago I realized that, if after 18 years we could still not get it right, it was time to move on.

When I was 23 I met a man and fell into lust & infatuation fast and hard. He was gorgeous, passionate, and very married. The fact that he was totally enamored with me didn't hurt my feelings one bit. I was young, beautiful, and very naive. The fact that I was totally enamored with him didn't hurt his feelings one bit either. What a lethal combination that was. We began seeing one another and the attraction became bigger than the both of us until that fateful Sunday when we made love. It was so overwhelming that we both cried.

Our connection was so strong that I could call his name out loud and he would go to the phone and call me to see what I wanted. The stories I could tell you would send chills up and down your spine and put goose-pimples on your goose-pimples. The chemistry was over-whelming for both of us. We could not be in the same room and not touch. It was the most wonderfully hellish-heaven one could imagine. He was my everything. Then it happened; I got pregnant.

The miracle of conception changed me from a young, crazy, and wild woman who was content to be with her married lover when he could get away to a woman who was now going to be soley responsible for a new life. I could not raise my child as the product of an ill-fated love affair nor could I remain a mistress any longer. The life that grew inside of me gave me the strength and courage to do the most difficult thing I have ever done barring nothing before or since. I left the state of Virginia, went home to my family, and began life anew.

I went back to Virginia for a while, and even spent time with my beloved but it was never the same. To be perfectly honest, when I got pregnant again, I was not sure if the baby was his or not. I moved back to my family, this time for good.

Life without him was empty, lonely, horrid. I reached into depths of my soul and found strength I never knew was there. I moved on; I perservered; I survived. I raised my daughters with more love than I knew was possible. I also moved into another relationship and had more children. To this day, I regret bringing other lives into my mess but I was simply someone trying to get on with my life and eek out as much happiness as I could. Some where deep in my core I always believed that I would see my beloved again before one of us left this planet and some how I managed to keep him safely and securely tucked into the deepest most inner part of my heart. When I heard him calling out to me through love songs on the radio and the risk of drawing him out into the open became too real, I stopped listening to the radio.

However, every five years give-or-take a day or two, he would come crawling out of there and consume my everything. I could hear him screaming my name. It grew louder by the moment until I would give in and call him on the phone. It was always as if we had never parted and we would always giggle because he had, in fact, been calling my name. These calls proved enough to enable me to once again tuck him safely away and get back to my life.

Two years ago I was at the 18 year mark of my then current marriage and had the epiphany that those 18 years of work had availed us nothing. I initiated a seperation and once again started life anew. I also had the need for closure where my beloved was concerned. Loving him had shadowed my marriage and I do not doubt that it affected my ability to love whole-heartedly the way a committed woman would do. A few months into the seperation, I made a phone call and left a message for my beloved to contact me. Although excited at the prospect of hearing his voice, I knew what I had to do and I was prepared for it. What I was not prepared for was his reaction when he returned my call.

This man was giddy and had a desperation in his voice that I had never heard before. He had been looking for me and his daughter for over a year and had given up hope of ever finding us. My message had proven to be right on time and he was thrilled to be able to talk to me. It was as it always was. We spoke of old times, laughed at the crazy things we had done, compared notes on who had remembered what, and then discussed the current status of each others' lives. I was newly seperated; his wife had passed away suddenly a few years back. I cried because I hurt for him; I cried because I had not been there to soothe his ravaged soul. His time was limited and even though he was currently in a relationship, he asked if he could call me back in a few days. As we had not tended to my business at hand, I agreed.

The next phone call was mind, earth, and life shattering. I picked up the phone, and this is all I heard: "I can't talk long. I just called to tell you that I love you." The phone clicked. No 'bye', no 'later', no explanation. I am not sure how long it was before I was able to draw a normal breath. We spoke occasionally for the next few months but only as friends who cared deeply for one another. Everytime he said my name, it took my breath away. We laughed, we reminisced, then suddenly we began making plans. Everything changed.

My Message In A Bottle...

I think this meme is sooooo sweet. I am not sure who tagged me...Betty or Mo...so I am linking to both of them! I just also got tagged by 'The Queen of Memes' who started the Message In A Bottle Meme. Now my virtual bottle will remain afloat in the Blogosphere Ocean for all blogernity.

Betcha can't guess who it is for....lol.
EDITED TO ADD: In response to Cricket's comment here, I would like to offer to 'put your message in a bottle' if you are unable to do so. Just leave a comment to this post with your message...and a way for me to contact you when it is done.

HUGS~