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Thursday, January 31, 2008

Today I am grateful for God.

Today I am grateful for God. He is answering my plea of, "What is wrong with me and how can we fix it??!!"

I am in a deep depression and the good news is that I realize that. Now to the work at hand...

I have no true love for myself or my body. These are immediate things on the fix-it list. I have to learn to love me and to care for do things that are good for me.

I find joy in things and soon the joy is gone and I am still participating in things out of habit. Recently I quit an online group due to this factor. I lost some friends because of it.

I realize that the most overwhelming emotion that I have is sadness. I do not like is old and tired and lonely and just plain miserable. Sadness has followed and enveloped me most of my life.

I want to smile so big that the light from my face is blinding! I want to change my name to Isaac...which means laughter.

I have no ambition, I feel trapped in an unsatisfactory life, I feel like a failure. I have no motivation and I need to be enough motivation for myself. I feel what is the point? I am haunted by the times I have failed and disappointed others.

Now, let me tell you something. I also currently have no voice has been 2 weeks since I have uttered a word. Wow! It is so weird not being able to talk. But it has caused me to become quite contemplative. This can be a good thing and I am trusting God that the answers I seek will come during this time.

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Greatfullivin said...

Hey girlfriend...Isaac is my grandson's name and Iwant you to know he is not always a laugh riot! Depression goes with the RA...that I know but the good news is...God counts you worthy. Worthy enough to let his sone die and suffer in hell in your place ...for you. Personally, I don't think God is a bad judge of must be worth it. SOOOOOOO....get up and get going, You will soon feel it! love and hugs!!!

Melanie said...

I am going to keep you in my prayers. Depression is an awful thing to go through.

Of course, realizing you are depressed is the first step towards healing. Please talk to a professional about this problem.

Praying for you!!
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